Wednesday, April 8, 2009

a window with a different view.

my bedroom window now looks at trees and mountain and sky and a couple of backyards. not university avenue and traffic and a dirty parking lot. it's strange to be in a strange bedroom. the last time i moved alone was over a year and a half ago. it turned out great, the girls in the house and the boys next door made for an amazing year.  this time may be different. from down the hall i hear my non-member roomate (been so long since i've had one of those) and her boyfriend who flew in from az for her birthday... it reminds me of when i first moved to the villa and had this weird crazy roomate who smelled horrid and her and her boyfriend would... whatever... to the celeb collaboration, 'where is the love?'. i kid you not. ask david. or kristi. 

it's strange to be here without jenn. life's not the same and it's only been a few hours.

i'm grateful to have a man around who's not a child. no more boys. i prefer the grownup kind, the kind who act their age, not their shoe size. who are reliable. and responsible. and kind to others... and a good example. somebody who makes me want to be a better person, not makes me feel like a babysitter/ride giver/pick up your pieces-er... he's so fabulous. if nothing happens past what has at this point, i'll be glad for a mold to use for other potentials. cause i enjoy not wasting my time with idiots. 

somtimes i have emotional days. like today. maybe it's because i'm female. maybe it's because the moon is so big. maybe it's because i'm a gemini. i'm grateful for my ability to bounce back easily (hearing damon say 'where is the bathroom' in korean, my friend joel's excitement over the puppy in my apartment, kurt and i eating ridiculous amounts of food for tucanos at lunch and then helping him hit on the checkout girl at allen's, my pig from color me mine that is just so precious...).  talk about tender mercies. 

    " We should not underestimate or overlook the power of the Lord's tender mercies. The simpleness, the sweetness, and the constancy of the tender mercies of the Lord will do much to fortify and protect us in the troubled times in which we do now and will yet live. When words cannot provide the solace we need or express the joy we feel, when it is simply futile to attempt to explain that which is unexplainable, when logic and reason cannot yield adequate understanding about the injustices and inequities of life, when mortal experience and evaluation are insufficient to produce a desired outcome, and when it seems that perhaps we are so totally alone, truly we are blessed by the tender mercies of the Lord and made mighty even unto the power of deliverance."  -Elder Bednar

Jake had his 3 year checkup yesterday. he is in the 93rd % for both height and weight. how did i get the short stick here? kristi and i will never be as big as he probably will when he's 10. 


JenniferKaryn said...

life's not the same with out you either. i'm nervous about living with people that i hardly know.

Andrea said...

I miss you Tara! I'm sad we only got to see you just a tiny bit when we were in Utah. I hope everything works out with the new place, and just remember, you always have a home in Dallas if you happen to stop by sometime. :)

i see you too...