i want i want i want me me me me mine mine mine mine now now now NOW

i love Hook.

i want to eat sushi for lunch. (i will probably eat tomatoes and cheese)

i don't want to go to the gym right now, but i haven't been since friday and i'm not allowed to eat before i go do my cardio. and there's no morning yoga classes anywhere in the valley and i hate that! (i HATE cardio. but i'm starting to get starving since it is after all 1 pm and so not fair!)

i want to drive somewhere far and warm on my 2.3 days i still have no work. (alone.)

i want to go home and see my brother (before he forgets me and stops saying that he misses me)

i want a really old little sewing machine so i can make a really cute quilt. 

i want my girlfriends back (aka i want their husbands to watch their kids so we can go to the beach together)

i want to not get so stressed when guys like me, and i want to find the one that gives me butterflies that last more than 19 hours. 

i want a dresser so my room doesn't constantly look like it's barfing clothes from every angle.

i want every dress/skirt/jewelry from anthropologie.... but more than those, i want this gorgeous thing

i wish they had it in some sort of rose-ish color though.... how perfect. surely i could find similar cheaper, but it's just so cute. 

i need to get a real adult job.

dirt and trucks

monster truck rally, friday the 13th, a group of half normal/half white trash greatness, gourmet white trash food beforehand... it was all great... (of course they loaded backwards...)

we just all love each other so much

spencer played co-photographer. sternly.
she really really likes that strawberry, i think.
because it wouldn't be a normal night with austin if all activities weren't halted for a run to the store or a restaurant for strawberry shakes...
skunk look
hi noelle!
sam loved that hat. weird al?

austin creeping in the back...
he almost spat that blue stuff everywhere after we just finished cleaning
the bottom of the barrel of koolaid is the best and most sugary.
the most wt koolaid holder possible
note the actual wt kid in the background
everybody
blue thunder was the badass of the night

flying through the air!
austin and sam were so excited! obviously...

yeah, that truck is a bull...

small town ghost town

sunset light through an old school building in eureka

dim technology in the middle of nowhere

somebody got a little nail-gun happy
a little shack in the middle of nowhere (silver city, ut) that had an old recliner in it. i could totally chill there just to think, if it wasn't freezing cold.
equine
yeah, right down there...

i could be hurtful, i could be purple

(i could be anything you like...)

ohhh goodness this has been a great week. i didn't work mondaytuesdaywednesday, worked 10 hours yesterday, and am off today! nothing better. seriously if i could work the 30-38 hour work week all in one shift, i would totally do it. 

anywhom, tonight we are going to the monster truck rally in salt lake city.. awesome. big trucks and dirt and loudness is so hot. austin is insisting on everyone dressing white trash, which is a great excuse for me to wear my very favorite torn true religions one more time before i cut them into shorts for summer (summer!!!).  bbq before (my trainer says i can have one cheat day a week, i better go get a dr. pepper and a costa vida salad before i have to start getting dressed), and then off to the smoky rowdy craziness, where we will hopefully get in a brawl or something. 

apparently atchafalaya is the cool new thing in provo. ok, really only among my coworkers. cause we're going again tonight? it's just too fun to play pool and dance and make fun of all the drunk/disgusting people. especially the real big girls who wear real little clothing and shake all they got on the platform. seriously, what's better? 

blogger is being ridiculous and not loading the pictures it took... maybe it's better anyway, cause hopefully i'll have some good ones from tonight, so i'll upload sometime tomorrowish...

peace out, i'm off to binge.

truth be told i miss you...

(truth be told i'm lying)

ahh, i have 4 days off this week! i'm so so so excited. monday through wednesday and then friday. which rocks because we are going to the monster truck rally. which is just so wt and so home and soooo good. 

i think it sucks when you like people much better before you actually get to know them. and then they turn out to be real stupid.

i love how i get excited to go to the gym now. i love it. i love yoga. i love the eye candy (duh) i love feeling so good after i actually do something good for myself.

i love my friends. and i love how truly very happy i've been the last month and a half or so. i don't know. it just is. 

im determined to take pictures this week. really this time. 

holy crap i have way too much energy for having woken up at 7:30 this morning. (anyone who knows me knows how much i love sleep, and since i don't have to work till almost 3 there's no reason to wake up this early EVER)... i had a sesh with the personal trainer at gold's... of course he's fantastic and of course we had all this crap in common and of course he just got back from teaching in kunming (kristi's first school in china) and of course he wasn't all that tall. and of course at the end of the free session they ask if you want to continue. and of course i do. but obviously i make zero monies and sooo... right.

we'll see.

(i'm meeting with him again monday morning. cause i convinced him to give me another free session to think about it... haha. i almost feel like elyse-whom i love and admire for her abilities to get men to give her stuff all the time... ok that's hard to explain...)

seriously though, you should hear how fast and hard i'm typing on these keys, it's ridiculous and my fellow library goers probably don't like me. i probably don't care cause they're probably jealous at how much energy i have and my new hoodie that i got at the shade warehouse sale for 7 buckaroos. 

i think blog stalkers who don't reveal themselves are creepers. but in a cool way. i still love you. 

ok my computer's gonna die, and i gotta go find something to do before work.... 

i think i haven't had time for anything lately. i miss taking pictures the most. 

i need my little brother. and summer. and the beach, and apparently, a tan.

on monday i drove up to hang out with kami for the day (so fun!) and on the way back, i got caught up shooting long exposures of the amazing clouds over the pass. it was freezing, but i kept stopping for 2 hours cause i just couldn't help it. i think i could have sat there for hours watching the sky.

phew! i finally have had a few hours to recoup from a ridiculous last few days. worked friday 3-11 pm, saturday 9 a.m. to 11 p.m. (hate doubles!) and sunday from 9 a.m. to 4:30 ... yuck! work has been crazy and drama filled, as usual. 

last night i went out after my double (though i only had 8 hours before i had to be up for my next shift) with tien and ra and vili and alisha and a couple other random friends of theirs. where else would you go at 11:30 in provo on a saturday night? atchafalaya!  haha. the most ghetto club/bar/pool hall i've ever been in. and my mom used to own a pretty ghetto one. it was hilarious and hysterical and betos afterwards was only semi embarrassing but seriously good. it's nice to have friends at work who i can hang out with outside of work without it being dumb or ending up dumb at work. too bad they are on the other shift or vacation staff. 

i have a ticket to china. for 3 weeks and 1 day of adventure. i get home from the moab trip and will have to go straight to the airport. dirty. i can't wait. 

and i miss my brother. it's been over a month, and i'm feeling the need to get home to see him.

and my room is a huge mess.

and i hate drama queens and kings. and sulky people. 

and i love my guy friends. like kurt, who i can have the craziest conversations with and i leave feeling so enlightened about the male species

i love candles

we got rid of jenn's cat and i love that too (sorry jenn)

i'm getting spring fever already. it happens when the sun is out for more than 2 days. 

i'm going to try to take pictures this next few days. i'm spending tomorrow up in logan with my best friend cause i need her and girl time and i just can't wait. and i got off wednesday just so that i could go to steak nights, because they really are just so great and such a boost to my social life. 

i really wish my stepmom would update her blog so that i could see my brother. hint hint.