more seattle....

things have been pretty quiet over with kevin and jeni and the baby (except at night, of course), we've just been hanging out, they've had lots of visitors... here's some more pics

Seattle Grace

not. It has been fun and crazy here in the NW... and freezing cold. jeni had clark the night we flew in, around 11:30, he's so sweet! i've been staying at brandi and eric's with tara and the boys cause jeni ended up c-sectioning it, so she has to be in the hospital till tomorrow. it's been crazy here! 5 little kids, 4 adults, insanity. fun though. i've taken tons of pictures, i'm gonna try to post some on here but the internet is going in and out so i don't know how it's gonna go. these are all out of order!








happy Zion


Finn is a daredevil and pro skateboarder already...




Sully is the coolest person I know.








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Phoenix man


chalk fight! Phoenix and Sul


welcome to tempers. combine 5 kids and chaos is sure to ensue...


Jeni and the little bug


Zion... our little ray of sunshine when all the others are screaming! =)


Do a little dance!

we're off to see the wizard...

a good cut of meat is worth its weight in gold.. so is rudy's rub.


or something. i leave in a few hours to go up to seattle. i can't wait to see jeni and tara and the boys (tara's flying from texas alone with a 3 year old and a baby- how brave!) and brandi and i can't wait to see this little baby... who will hopefully come soon...

things here have been kind of crazy- jenn moved down on sunday, that's been fun to have her here, she's just job searching, we've done as much playing as we possibly can between babysitting and interviews and what not. i got photoshop which i'm pretty excited about, but i haven't even had the time to play with it... maybe on the flight to seattle... i am bringing 2 books that i'm determined to finish this week- william faulkner's "sound and the fury" and mccullough's 1776... i love books, but i have about a 25 long booklist that i want to do this summer and i'm so far behind...

last night we bought an 8 dollar charcoal grill and some good t-bones and pineapple and it turned out to be the best bbq ever...

jenn assembling the grill...


trying to light the charcoal sans lighting fluid


so we had to run to the store to get lighting fluid. which is actually a lot of fun...


everyone is SO EXCITED!


the goods


even pat (the cat) came out to join us for dinner al fresco.

wow, i post so much

i had a blog last year that i posted on a lot in the beginning and then it faded out, this one seems to be keeping my attention. probably because i'm not working a lot. that's annoying.

thanks to everyone who called or texted or facebooked (i'm making them verbs, ok?) yesterday, it was a great day... derek and sean took me to breakfast at kneaders- their endless french toast is to die for.... literally, it probably will give you a heart attack if you eat it too often. i did some shopping, and our 'no olive garden' dinner group met at Sammy's- a new burger/shake place here in provo. the place is seriously tiny- the space for customers to stand/sit/eat/order is about the size of a bedroom... and of course our group rolled in with about 40 people. very crowded, and it took over an hour to get my peaches and cream shake... that's ok though- it was amazing- they actually put a piece of homemade pie in the blender. i only took a few sips of it though cause as soon as they finally gave it to me, we had decided to leave to go 4 wheeling in jake's new rubicon (so sexy) and brett's super amazing rock-crawling toyota. we went up a mountain. i thought we might die (not really, the boys are great). it was wonderful. my sweet roomate and her fiance got a huge cake which was great- we still have tons of it so if anyone has a sugar craving, come on over.. and my other roomate got me flowers, so sweet...


(ok so this isn't jake- but it's the same jeep and i'm guessing this will be what the scene looks like in moab in 2 WEEKS!!!!)

music make you lose control

ok so i actually get really annoyed when blogs have the music boxes in them, usually just because i already have music going on my computer when i'm on it, or because i can't read and listen/sing along at the same time. maybe some of you are better at this. i gave in, because after all, in the words of one of the greatest, Stevie Wonder... "Music is a world within itself, with a language we all understaaaaand, with an equal opportunity for all to sing, dance and clap their haaaands..." i'm gonna leave the player at the top, that way you can pause or quiet it asap if needed like i do.

what's in a year

sunday's are usually my days where i go on a drive and try to take pictures/get away/think/listen to music, etc... yesterday i drove up past sundance (only about 15 minutes from my house) and even though the alpine loop doesn't open till friday, i got some cool shots, mostly with the lensbaby again, i love that thing.

i did lots of thinking, mostly because it is the beginning of june. i'll be 23 in 2 days... how scary. a year ago i was in such a different place than i am now. a year ago, i was at the end of a 2 year relationship- one that i thought was kind of the one. looking back now i realize how foolish i was, but i was so 'in love' then that it's hard to see that you may be in something you don't actually want to be in. have i changed in a year though? have i grown in my abilities since that day a year ago when 'my world' came 'crashing down' and my plans were all gone and i thought i would never recover... i'll admit, i still look back on my time with david and wish it had gone better, but i also think about him getting married in 4 weeks and am grateful that it's not me. as much as i loved him as a person, he as a person was not what i wanted in THE person. does that make sense? i had such fun good times with him, but the bad times were definitely not worth the pain. i am grateful that i got to go through some real heartache along the way though, and i know i will again, but everybody has to have that one relationship that doesn't turn out the way we want, that takes a long time to recover from. what intense pain, it's interesting how the human body and psyche responds to situations like that, how long it takes to recover, and how you look at it once you are 'over it'. i am so grateful for him though, and what he taught me about loving another person and learning how to work on your own faults. i hope he does well in the future- it's weird to think of 2 years being so close to somebody (though we definitely had ups and downs during that time period) and then know that you will never see them again, never be invested in their life like you were. anyways, it was fun while it lasted and now i'm glad to be past that part of life and into more fun and wonderful things and people...

since then i've had some wonderful moments- spending time with family, spending the last moments with my grandmother while she was on earth, being at my best friend's wedding, making new lifelong friends, moving out on my own into homes where i don't know anybody, the whole experience with rich lloyd... so many moments to cherish.

it's amazing what can happen in a year, i am pretty sure i've grown a lot, but i know i'm so far from what my heavenly father has planned for me to become. i can't wait to see what he has in store for me in the next year...

(wow, that was long... sorry for a 'dear diary' entry. reflection is good.)

some shots from sunday: