some random stuffers...

you know how in christmas stockings you always get random stuff? (we usually do magazines (my mom has passed on her addiction to magazines... i'd love to subscribe to a million of them but lately i'm addicted to the provo library's magazine section- i'm there now!!), candy (dad-m&ms, mom-heath bars... does pam like candy? haha...), new toothbrushes (i move we switch this to floss- flossing adds 6 years to your life because it prevents gum disease), etc. here is my random stocking assortment of life lately...

i just got an invitation to join jordan's engagement group on fb (where you give your address so they can send an invitation) and it was nice. as in, i knew they'd invited people to this group over 2 weeks ago but i didn't get the invite and i was almost hurt considering i was jordan's first love and he mine, and so i feel like i'm an integral part of him desiring a wife. she is cute, an RM, perfect for him. he was just perfect. i love them, i love what he gave me, i love that at least one relationship i've had was utterly wonderful and gave me the confidence that i'll find that again.  way to go J & J!  

i'm pricing out my tickets to china. woot and a half, i'm so freaking excited, i need june to get here NOW (also i need the june weather and the june moab trip- which jake day has promised me won't interfere with china departure, but austin wasn't so sure, i'm still sweating bullets about that). i'm trying to find a way to make obscenely more amounts of $$ so i can make this trip incredible and buy all the chinese weird stuff they have over there and allllssoooo... my friend sam yam sent me the invite on fb (which i'm confident will one day eliminate the need for actual phone calls, texts, and mailed invites) for a trip across japan and korea and china for the month of august... hmmm.... to extend china trip by another 5 weeks or not...

my hair does look really good wavy. i finally figured out the trick yesterday before church and i'm pretty much really attracted to myself right now, even though it's the day after and not quite as phenomenal.  here's living kind of proof: 

(ok, that's kind of a creepy picture.  and looking at it now, my bangs way need to be trimmed...)

(i'm shushing you, cause this is a library, after all!)

also, i've been incredibly happy after austin's talk that took place like, more than 3 weeks ago or something. for once, somebody's words have actually stuck. sure i still want a lot of changes- i want to be paying off my debt more and making more money and having more friends to hang out with when i'm bored at night and traveling like constantly and having a sweet wonderful boy to run his hands through my phenomenally wavy hair... but it's all good. i'm content, and what i'm not content with, i'm trying to figure out ways to change.  i've had this sudden streak of boldness when it comes to telling guys how i feel.   i think maybe that is attributed to late night texting (not a great idea sometimes!) and a strong want to put things in motion on my own. i need to sometimes remind myself that i am not always in charge and that maybe that's a good thing.  (note favorite scripture ever, Isaiah 55, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways... For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts" Duh Tara, you aren't the smart one here! )

other small random things:

*i've been so obsessed with stalking fabulous photographer's blogs lately... 

sheenajibson and leo patrone and blue lilly and dustin izatt (who did sarah and matt's and is so gorgeous) are my absolute favs. 

*i bought a pair of jeans on sale today (What's Hot is having a 30% off the ENTIRE STORE sale right now!) that i've wanted for 3 years now. once i even bought them at nordstrom's but then returned them after sticker shock wore in- they were my first designer jeans purchase and looking back now i laugh, cause i've bought jeans that were almost 3 times what i paid for them today.  those said jeans now have huge holes in the knees and i can only wear them on days off.  i was saving to buy a lens, and this just put a tad of a dent in that. one day i really will try to be better with my money. 

*i want Isla Fisher's hair. plus i can't wait to see her movie, Confessions of a Shopoholic. 

this is getting to be too long and random, so i better end it now!